Today Jonty turned 6 months and I can't begin to really convey just how many emotions I am feeling. Like always when I'm feeling this way, I'm up late, well its only 11:30pm so that's not that late considering sometimes I can be sitting here at 3am, but you get what I mean. The house is quite (I love the quite now!) and I find this is always the best time for me to write these sorts of posts.
I know everyone can't believe how fast their babies grow, but to be honest, I can't believe I am actually here to watch him grow! The past 6 months have been amazing, but really hard sometimes. The fact that I was extremely close, and I do mean close, to having a stroke, I can't help but think about what might have been. However, I am not trying to dwell on the past, I am just trying to make my way through it and I am thankful that this little guy is here and that I am able to watch him grow.
The anxiety I have felt since he was born and what happened post delivery has been nothing short of agony at the best of times. I am extremely lucky to have an amazing, patient husband, kids that forever forgive and amazing friends that always support me. Thank goodness I am starting to feel better and I'm actually enjoy my life now.
We are by no stretch of the imagination rich, but I do feel extremely rich when I look at my family and friends right now. Yes I know it sounds corny, but its TRUE! I've always know that life is too short. I was taught by my parents, that you have to give and do your up most best as a person and good things will come your way. I really feel lucky right now with amazing friends and family and the experience with Jonty made me realise again that our family and friends are spread wide and far across this world, but to be thankful for every single one of them and for every moment we have here, even when you think you can't take it anymore.
So, Happy 6months Jonty! You are one amazing young man who brings a smile to my face every day. I love you so much and I am so glad you came into our lives. Our family is complete now and I adore you more than any word can really express. You are already a gorgeous baby who is turning quickly into a gorgeous boy! I can't wait to see your personality develop over the coming months and see you reach your milestones and amaze us with all that you do.
Thank you to all our family and friends, you guys always support us and with out it I don't know where we'd be? It's been 6months of pleasure and pain, but thankfully there is much more pleasure then pain these days.